LUV SHACK or SHAKE

Stress is injurious to health as smoking is.Recently,I have been very overstressed and my mind has been clogged to put anything into words.I feel pressure is mounting on me.There's a downward tug this month and am like a yo-yo in fate's hand.Everybody seems very demanding,including situations and am not being able to cope up with.At times,I wish I can ran away from this world and go into the wilds.Other times I jus pray my head is smashed in some car accidents.Everyday so many people die,y dont I ??!!!?? I have neva been a sort of pessimist but right now everything in my life seems to be out of my control.I jus need a miracle to lead a good and peaceful life.String of situations making me loose faith,control and temper.And all these makes me paranoid bout marriage.I am the type of person to adjust everything for the person I love and give my best to work out anything in my life.My world revolves around my love.At times I feel being such an extremist is also abnormal.But I can neva work out a midway.Then I wonder,all the lovely couples,holding halds and hugging and posing pictures,are all their lives perfect,polished and chique or its a virtual life they lead!!I neva want a virtual and a compromised life for myself.Do we marry someone we can live with or someone we cannot live without??!!!??There are so many unanswered questions and no google or agony aunt can solve the puzzle of my mind.Besides this tug of war am partying crazily.Last Saturday it was LoveShack with Satish and Roshni,met a couple of new people as well.Sunday and Monday have been two of the best days of my life with Rahul.We drank like sponge and watched crazy movies like Wrong Turn 4.Insane fun it was.Lost our parking ticket at UB City but enjoyed every bit of it.It was a state of elation.Start of the week,Satish really helped me flushing out my toxins and we did some crazy hunting and the picture here is the result.Yesterday night was again at Loveshack and lolz people cant stop teasing me coz every 2nd day am there.And any new people I meet its there.For every thing my answer is Loveshack.It was a fun nite.I met Sunny.In the beginning he seemed a strange guy to me but I think he is a sweet and a warm person.Thanx Vicky for the Wednesday night.But it ended again in my mood spillovers.Lets see where and how far it takes me.It gets so nerve-wrecking at times I feel,Monday should be end of everything.I need to find an end or a new begining.