Habits - 12 Things.

And I can honestly say, in retrospect, that I've made progress. Not with the numbers of the bank account or pant size as much as the inside stuff that's harder to work on. I'm not perfect and don't pretend to be, but I'm learning to own my own failures instead of blaming others. I'm no longer in denial though reality is still scary. I am still learning to make pretty good strides with chunking things down to make better use of my time, think in terms of absolutes much less often and added the bright and cheery color of coral to my wardrobe.

So my list this year? I'm wondering if the perennial favorites (less weight, more money, etc) don't belong on the list at all. Listen to any self-help guru long enough and they'll tell you that those things are really outward expressions of how we feel on the inside anyway. So why not start there instead? And instead of listing just 12 things I don't need, I think I'll get all wild and crazy and split it down the middle to add things I do need. 'Cuz that's how I roll.

Don't needs:

Guilt. Doesn't matter what it's over, it keeps me stuck and feeds the ick. It's worn out its welcome and is free to move along.

Denial. I'm not talking in terms of diet, but rather denying myself the self care I deserve. Denying my body good, wholesome food, water and kindness. Denying my need to pretend I'm creative. Denying my need for sleep. I'd be much better off without denial.

Sugar. This is one of those things that I know but ignore. I know that I feel gross after too much sugar. Yet I indulge anyway. Finding a lovely replacement might be a start.

Clutter. I struggle with this. I equate a certain amount of clutter--stuff--with homey. I see completely clear spaces and think 'empty' instead of zen. But surely there's a happy medium, right? 

Late fees. Hate 'em. 

Doubt. In myself, God's plan and the love of others. 

What I need more of:

Water. My biggest challenge is drinking water. How whacked out is that?! Much like my sugar struggle, I know how good I feel when I drink it yet I resist. Go figure. 

Yoga. For one blissful month I stretched and sweated and grew. I loved every minute of it. I need it not only for my body but for my mind, my emotions and my sanity. 

Prayer.I don't really know how to pray. I do believe it's high time I figured it out. 

Faith. Not only in God but in myself, my kids and the goodness that surrounds us. 

Winning lottery tickets. Seriously, that would make things so much easier