ReBorn 2011

Where did my 2011 begin??How did this year's accomplishments line up with last year's goals?What did I accomplish?
Well I started the year with a superb plot but no cast.I danced my way through the new year but inside me I was breaking down.And then I met Rahul.It was a rebirth for me.I found new meaning to my life.I re-discovered myself.I felt like painting the sky,picking up cranberries,flying the kites.To be honest my last year's goal was jus to settle down and make money,I didn't believe in love.I felt there is no way for any good deed.I dont know whether I still do believe in karma but I do believe to be glad of life coz it gives us the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars;to be satisfied with possessions;to despise nothing in the world except falsehood and meanness and to fear nothing except cowardice.I have made enemies,I have learnt not to think of them but of friends.I had the best parties in goa where I partied like a star till 9 am.I experienced new anxiety,the shyness ofmeeting to-be-in-laws,its like the morning dew of winter.Though I didn't achieve any of my goals and faced a lot of setback in every phse of life,still I have pulled myself through with love that forged over the months.I recovered my immense will to live when I realized that the meaning of my life was the one I had chosen for it.

The moment during which I felt alive this year were those three days in Goa.It was fun,it was crazy.There was too much alcohol in our caffeine system.But those were the days I lived.I danced with my toe fracture.We did the most exciting watersports,hogged like crab.That experience made me feel completely alive,every sense heightened,every emotion magnified.It was only few moments,few hours,but that left me with memories to cherish throughout our lives.The sand,the waves,the breeze,the music,everything around smelled of happiness.The best part I was away from any form of communication,my mobile was switched off most times,I didn't do facebook.All I did was eat,dance,bathe n have fun.I lived life.Most importantly,I was with Rahul.We went high on scooty rides.Without ecstasy,we had a feeling of the same.Nothing to worry about,those moments where like in Eden's paradise.The nights lasted forever andthe days were meant to be slow and all we did was we lived life,every second,every minute,every hour.Those moments took my breath away and I know am living for Rahul & my parents and what am living for is worth dying for.